Monday, July 8, 2019

Professional Driver

I just celebrated 1 year as a driver for Uber and Lyft! Time has flown by so quickly. Something that I haven't had an opportunity to share on here is something that a lot of my passengers ask me: "Why did you start driving for Uber/Lyft?"

Many years ago before I could even drive, I was the kid that would see people either stranded on the side of the road due to car trouble, carrying a lot of grocery bags, or just plain hitchhiking, and I would want to help them or give them a ride. I grew up in a culture where this was very acceptable, but here in the states my parents would always tell me that it was unsafe. The way many adults warn children about strangers, which is good to do. Every time I would come across someone that I would think needs assistance, I would start dreaming up of ways that I could help them in the future.

One time my dad and I got stranded on the side of the road at night. We had an angel come by and help us out. I couldn't believe it. God took care of us. Soon after, I regretted that I couldn't be the one to do the same for others.

When I began to drive I was still a minor and I kept feeling like I was a failure for not being able to help like I wanted. I began to think that once I got married, I would make it a ministry to go out with my husband and help whoever I could. I am now 28 and still single. At age 18 with no prospect of marriage on the horizon, I did what I could. I prayed for God to bless me with a car so that I could use it to help others, and he did soon after.

Within the first couple months of owning my vehicle, God collected. I decided to use my car to drive a group of us downtown to minister to the homeless for almost a year. At about the same time, I decided to go on vacation to Florida. The week I decided to go, the vehicles that this one family owned were all in need of repair, so I was able to drive the family to work, church, and other places that they needed to go. I felt like God's favor over me was abundant. I began to offer my friends rides, who either didn't have a vehicle or for other reasons, whenever and wherever they needed to go. This made me so happy to be able to help people even on a small scale.

Then...Uber launched. My dreams came true! Only one problem, my car was 6 years old. One year too many. I was devastated. I continued to serve the best way I could. Finally last year I was blessed with the opportunity to finance a new (slightly used) car. Before I even signed on the dotted line I began the application process for both Uber and Lyft. Within a couple days of purchasing the vehicle, I was finally self-employed and a professional driver. My dreams became real.

I did not look at this opportunity as a job, but a way that I could help people in my area get from point A to point B. To assist them in their time of need, while sharing my stories and listening to their troubles. I have since even picked up a real hitchhiker too! Giving this entirely into God's hands has been a blessing beyond words in my life. I am so thankful for God gifting me this. May He continue to bless me.

Friday, August 17, 2018

Water and Dust by Cory Asbury

One part water and one part dust
Yet You're still making trophies out of us
Making something out of nothing, it's what You do
Yet Your work is never finished and it's never past due
Gently Your voice like a calming embrace
Calls me from out of the noise
You whisper to me, "Child, forget not your dreams"
As we lie awake in the dark
Just don't lose heart
From the dirt to a throne with a brand new name
And the blood of the King running through our veins
There's hidden gold in these jars of clay
All these hidden crowns will be revealed one day
Yeah we'll lay them down at Your feet one day
Don't lose heart
He's got your hand
Don't lose heart
He knows your name
When everything is falling apart
Don't lose heart.

Get It Right

Today as I was returning from a walk, I changed the music to bring down my heart rate.
The song "Get It Right" from Glee came up next on my playlist:

What have I done?
I wish I could run
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

I recently started dating. Yes, you heard that right..."recently started dating." No, I didn't forget to mention "again." This is an entirely new thing for me.
I recently went on my 3rd date...EVER. He couldn't believe it. I rarely believe it myself. We went on 2 dates, but he still asked me to confirm that I had only my 3rd and 4th date with him. On this fourth date of mine (our 2nd), he made an assumption and went on to state that I haven't been hurt then. Before I could answer, he went on to talk about other things. If he had taken the time to listen (not that I was entirely sure I was ready to dig deep into this topic and share with him my past), he would have come to know that I have been hurt deeply. If he had taken the time to find out what I really meant when I stated earlier that I didn't date because I was focusing on God...he would know I meant that my focus on God was to learn to trust Him after I had lost all trust for the people around me. Not condemning the guy. He couldn't have known.
In the span of a few short years, I lost 3 dear friends that I thought God put them in my path for marriage. I spent the last 5 years trying to find my faith, hope, and trust back in Jesus. Learning that only my trust in Him and His love for me will carry me in any relationships that I form. That includes my relationship with my siblings, parents, friends, etc.
When this song came on, I was thinking about those times and how I would question myself over and over again. What have I done? Why was I not enough? Why did they not want me? How can I fix this? Can I fix this? I never got my answers, so the pain lingered.
I asked God what would it take for me to be enough? What am I doing wrong? What can I do to keep the world from crumbling around me? How many times will it take? How many times will it take for me to get it right?
People are good, though. "If he turned away from you, then he wasn't right." "You will find someone better." I hated when people would say this, especially when I was in my teen years, because of course I was naive back then. I admit it. A little bit later, I made it my mantra. I would move forward and say (with a "praise you, Jesus" tone), "If this isn't the guy, thank you, Lord for having someone better out there for me." It made the blows land just a little bit lighter. The last few blows though had me running for 5 years.
When 2018 rolled around, I knew God was telling me to start making some changes of preparation. I began to take care of myself: physically, mentally, spiritually. I knew He was telling me that I am ready and I need to trust Him.
Trusting Him, I entered the dating world. With this step, I began to be bombarded from every side about what to say, not say. Do, not do. Wear, not wear. My brain wanted to explode. I did want the input because I had no idea what I was doing. The hard part was when the world began to sound louder than His voice. The world drowned Him out. With this guy ending things, I got lost in the noise and I was trying to blindly find God again.
You've heard the stories. Seen the movies. Parents walk into a mall or fair (crowded area) holding their child's hand one minute, the next minute....No one can find the child. That's how I felt.
This song reminded me of a time where in the midst of doing everything I thought was right: being a woman of God, living by His Word, waiting until marriage...everything was still falling apart. I couldn't come up for air long enough to take a breath before I was pulled back under. It also made me realize how this time I am still those things, and things may not be going the way I would like for them to go, but God is right there. I am trusting Him. The crowds have cleared and through an opening I see my Father. Standing there smiling at me. Letting me know that even though I lost sight of Him for a minute. He never took His eyes off me.
The rest of the song goes like this:

Can I start again, with my faith shaken?
Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this.

So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send out a wish, yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see how much I care.

So how many times will it take for me?......until I get it right.
Thank you, God, for loving me always and forever.
Jeremiah 29:11

As always, if you are going through some struggles of your own with trusting God's plan for your life and you need someone to talk to, you can always just shoot me an email: lisavikprik@gmail.com
I will do my best to get back to you A.S.A.P.

Monday, February 5, 2018

18 and counting...

Fun story: I've lost 18 pounds.
More fun: In 1 month.
Crazy fun: I eat more...and I still eat ice-cream and donuts. "Shut up!" It's true.
Am I about to pitch a once in a life-time quick diet trick for you to join in on with me too?
ABSOLUTELY NOT!!!!
Now that you know that the following information isn't going to be a waste of your time, I can get to the really good stuff. I haven't just shed pounds. Inches have melted away. I have muscles without flexing...shhh....it's top secret info. My enemies cannot know.
Then comes the fun part!
"What diet are you on?" "What have you changed?" "What's working?" "How can I do what you do?"
I remember asking all the same questions, and I have come to some very interesting answers this time around. Simply put...NO MORE GUILT! None. I eat a donut. So what? It's just a donut. I eat an apple. So what? It's just an apple.
One of the hardest things for me in life has always been to find balance. There were moments that I had found it, but I couldn't break through because the GUILT would pull me back so fast that I'd be putting out fires on my clothing and the smoke would linger for days. I'd sit in a dark cloud and stew. Putting myself down. Over and over again. Finding balance requires discipline. Discipline is something that can be taught and learned over time. Guilt is something that you either choose to carry with you or throw it out. I chose to carry it with me like an armor.
Guilt has a knack for keeping you immobile. If you don't move, everything can stay the same. God didn't create this world without an innate plan to have it constantly changing. Not only do things move and change on the earth, the earth itself moves and changes. The universe around it moves and changes. Guilt keeps you grounded in fear and keeps you from moving and changing.
My guilt led to fear and fear wouldn't let me move. I finally said to myself take some baby steps. Don't dive in and find excuses to stop again. Just take one baby step. Make one small change. OK. Now, take one more baby step. You GOT this! One more. YES! ...that's it. I haven't taken anymore yet. I've just taken a few small steps. I have many more to go. MANY...but just ONE at a time.

Truth time: I started doing this all by MYself.*
More truth: It wasn't until the 3rd baby step I mentioned above that I asked God to help me trust Him.
Crazy truth: It's easier for me to trust myself. I grew up that way. "I got this."
My truth: Without God. I will choose guilt again. I will slip into fear again.
Scary truth: With God. I will choose guilt again. I will slip into fear again.
I get discouraged by people who say things like, "We are His temple so we must take care of our bodies." "With Christ all things are possible." "He will never leave you nor forsake you." These are all from the Bible. Be honest. Did that just ring as guilt in your heart?? "Are you telling me that I'm defiling God's temple because I'm fat." "If all things are possible..." "...has God forsaken me." "Why can't I do this one thing and succeed?" See.
I love my church family in every part of the world...but...*sigh*...sometimes our "good intentions" rip people to shreds. What you wanted to say to encourage someone, to give them hope, only gave them GUILT. Guilt in their eyes and guilt before God. Your nuggets of love...were hidden words of judgement.
So...today I came across this, "Dig deeper to find out how to love yourself enough to cherish health. Plan better. Forgive faster. Get the healthy life you deserve." Want to know how I read it? "DIG DEEPER. LOVE YOURSELF. FORGIVE. YOU DESERVE." No matter what shape or size or color or age or height. Please know that you are WORTHY to live a guilt-free life. Once you take just one teeny tiny step...your world will be changed forever. Also, this is very important! That small step better not be something someone TOLD you to do. Let it come from within, when you dig deep down. Don't be a follower of others. I have found that people I tried to follow were in worse health than I was. Don't make that mistake. Listen to the inner most being of yourself. I'll be waiting to see what life has in store for you.

You can always email me with any questions, thoughts, comments: lisavikprik@gmail.com

To close, I am taking it one step at a time. It feels so good to not be carrying guilt. I am praying that the guilt stays far away. I hope to keep moving forward and forever changing.

*all by myself - Celine Dion's song sung by Bridget Jones in a movie about her personal diary.
*sigh* - was just a sigh.

I'm back!!

2 years!! Normally the excuse is that I've been busy...well...if you knew what happened to me in the past 2 years...I can get away with that excuse. Let's travel back in time really quick.
2 years ago...I was living in Ukraine. That's right! LIVING in UKRAINE!
18 months ago...I was traveling through England and Ireland.
17 months ago...I was living in Illinois.
16 months ago...I moved in with my best friend in Georgia.
1 year ago...I moved into a AirBnB home, still in Georgia.
8 months ago...I moved in with my folks in Maryland.
Where I am now. Phew! Now, does my excuse stand? Honestly it doesn't matter.
I AM BACK!

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Perfect Timing

It's interesting how songs have a way of speaking to you at just the right moment. Recently, I heard a new song. I've listened to it a few times in the past month. 2 days ago, the song come up in rotation on my playlist, and the message of the song was exactly what I needed to hear at this moment in time in my life. I drew strength from it, and through its message, I drew strength from God.
Below is a link to the song, as well as the song lyrics. Maybe someone else needs to hear this too.

I need you to soften my heart, and break me apart.
I need you to open my eyes, to see that your shaping my life.
And all I am, I surrender.

Give me faith to trust what You say.
That Your good, and Your love is great.
I'm broken inside.
I give you my life.

I need you to soften my heart, and break me apart.
I need you to pierce through the dark, and cleanse every part of me.
And all I am, I surrender

Give me faith to trust what You say.
That your good, and Your love is great.
I'm broken inside.
I give you my life.

I maybe weak.
Your Spirit's strong in me.
My flesh may fail.
My God, You never will.

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

I'm Losing It.....Losing It All for Christ!

Over the past year or so, I have found myself referring to myself as crazy. Typically that's nothing new, but now there was a different meaning to it. I wasn't afraid to be called crazy. I was going out of my way to be called crazy.

Why?

Here is my explanation:
Society has deemed what is normal. I am 25. This is the time to start building a career or continue towards obtaining higher education, begin a family of my own, have a stable job, have my own place or save for one, and so on. But....over the past 3 years, I have lived in 3 radically different places. I have had at least 3 different 'somewhat stable' jobs. I have attended 3 different Bible colleges. I've been to over 8 different churches as a regular attender. From all points of view, this seems a little unstable. Most people would say that I can't commit or that I am flaky.

Isn't faith about believing what one cannot see? I myself haven't been unstable. I just had one commitment that was more important than all the things by which society measures stability. I had my eyes on the One who hasn't left my side and continues to lead me each day on a path towards my calling. All the steps I've taken have brought me just a bit closer to where God wants me to be. They have helped mold and shape me into the woman of God that I am today. I still have a long journey ahead of me. I still have faults and flaws that I am working on with God to change in my life. God is the author of my story! He wrote the beginning. Together, we will complete this work, which He has begun in me.

A couple days ago, I told someone, "I would rather be remembered as being crazy than being stable, because that means that I am continuing to follow Jesus." Then this past Sunday, the Pastor had an amazing sermon about the 'crazy' people who were just following God's plan for their lives.

Noah: He was building a huge ark. On land. Not only for his family, but 2 of every animal. These animals came on their own (called by God) to Noah.
Abraham: He was asked to sacrifice his son. Thankfully, there weren't any witnesses. Otherwise, who knows how this story would have gone, especially if Sarah had found out.
Moses: The Egyptian army was chasing them. They had nowhere to go. He walked up to the Red Sea and held his staff over it. If you recall, he was actually considered crazy just for asking the Pharaoh to let the Israelites go.
Joshua: Marched around the walls of Jericho (a big city). 7 days. On the 7th day, 7 times. Signing praises to God.

In each case, God did wonderful and miraculous things. He blessed His people for following Him.

Noah: His family was delivered from a terrible fate.
Abraham: He was promised to have as many sons as there are stars in the sky.
Moses: Delivered God's people out of slavery.
Joshua: The city walls fell, and Jericho was won back to the Israelites.

I'm not nearly as crazy as these believers, but these testimonies dare me to only get crazier for God!
Amen!